( Here Avatara Adi Da further describes the insight that awakened in Him and how it matured over time.)

It Became Clear To Me That The Feeling Of Dilemma and The Urge To Seek God, Happiness, Fulfillment, or Release Via The Acquisition Of experience, knowledge, or any condition or conditional object at all Are Not In Fact The Means For The Realization Of Truth Itself. I Understood That The Problem-Feeling and The Urge To Seek Are Not A Program For The Actual Discovery Of Truth, but They Are Merely Symptoms Of A Curious Disease. I Observed That These Symptoms, Which Tend To Characterize every moment Of ordinary Existence, Are In Fact The Evidence Of the very state that Must Be Transcended If The Truth Itself Is To Be Realized. It Was Clear To Me That The Feeling Of Dilemma and The Seeking-Urge Are Nothing More Than A Confession That God, Truth, or Happiness Is Not presently experienced or known. And This Seemed Remarkable To Me.

If God, Truth, or Happiness Is Sought On The Basis Of A Problem (or The Feeling Of Dilemma), Then God, Truth, or Happiness Is Always Projected Into future time, and The Realization Of God, Truth, or Happiness Is Made conditional, or Dependent Upon psycho-physical events. This Stood Out To Me As Nonsense, or As An Absurd Proposition.

My Own "Consideration" Was This: God, Truth, or Happiness (Whatever That Is Altogether) Must Necessarily Be That Which Is Always Already The Case. Therefore, I Observed That The Felt Dilemma and The Urge To Seek Are Simply The Absurd Confession That God, Truth, or Happiness Is Absent Now. And I Observed Further That The Signs Of Dilemma and Seeking Are Not A Program For The Actual Future Realization Of God, Truth, or Happiness, but They Are Merely A Means For Preventing Present Realization Of God, Truth, or Happiness. The Feeling Of Dilemma and The Urge To Seek Are Actually The Evidence Of A Disease, Which Is the conditional (or psycho-physical) self In its Chronic Contraction Upon itself, and In its Symptomatic Non-Realization Of God, Truth, or Happiness.

Indeed, It Became Clear To Me That the "ego" (or the conventional "I") Is Not an "entity" (or an Independent and Static "thing of being"), but the "ego" (or the conventional "I") Is The Chronic and Total psycho-physical Activity Of self-Contraction, Always Associated With Concrete Results (In the psyche, mind, emotion, body, and their relations). And the self-Contraction Can Always Be Located (In any moment) In Feeling (As Fear, Anxiety, Stress, and All Other Kinds Of Reactive emotions and Blocks In The Flow Of Natural bodily energy In The Circle Of the body-mind).

The self-Contraction Is the Complex limit on Natural bodily energy (and, In The Case Of Any Degree Of Spiritual Awakening, On The Spirit-Energy) In The Circle Of the body-mind. Therefore, the self-Contraction Is (Ultimately) a Complex limit On The Inherent and Self-Existing Spiritual Radiance Of Transcendental (and, Ultimately, Divine) Being. And Perfect Freedom, or Inherent Happiness, or Inherently Most Perfect God-Realization Is A Matter Of Direct (or Inherent, or Native) and Inherently Most Perfect Identification With The Self-Existing and Self-Radiant Condition Of Transcendental (and Inherently Spiritual) Divine Being (or Consciousness Itself), Which Identification Is Allowed Only By Present or Progressive Transcendence Of The ego-Act Of self-Contraction.

The self-Contraction Is Un-Necessary. The self-Contraction Is (Without Ultimate Necessity, and, Therefore, Only Apparently) Being "Added" To Existence Itself (In Reaction To Cosmic Nature, or To Apparent conditional Existence). The self-Contraction (Originally) Coincides With and (Effectively) Perpetuates The Apparition Of Cosmic Nature Itself, and The Presumption That Existence Itself Is conditional, or Merely Apparent. Therefore, the self-Contraction Is (Originally, and Also In Effect, or conditionally) Un-Natural, Because it Superimposes On The Transcendental, and Inherently Spiritual, Self (or Consciousness Itself) A False View Of Both Cosmic Nature (or conditional Reality) and The Divine (or The Most Priorly Real Self-Condition).

When what Is Un-Necessarily Superimposed On Reality Is Released, What Stands (or Remains) As The Obvious Is, Necessarily, Reality, or The Real Condition Itself.

That Is To Say, Whatever Is Always Already The Case Authenticates Itself (Directly, Inherently, Obviously, and Perfectly).

Therefore, self-Transcendence Necessarily Reveals (or Allows The Revelation Of) The Transcendental, and Inherently Spiritual, Self-Condition As The Self-Authenticating (or Inherently and Obviously Real and True) and Most Prior (or Necessarily Divine) Reality and Truth!

This Heart-Awakened Insight Was Instantly Liberating, and It Became The Basis For A Progressive Revelation Of God (or Reality, Truth, and Happiness). The Insight Itself (or The Unique and Inherently Liberating Understanding Re-Awakened At The Heart) Directly Coincided (or Arose Simultaneously) With A Practice That Was Thereafter To Be The Most Basic Characteristic Of The Way Of My Life (and Which Was To Re-Awaken Full and Most Ultimate Realization). That Practice Had Two Primary Aspects. The First Was Profound Submission Of attention and all the energies of the body-mind To Observe, Feel, and Feel Beyond the self-Contraction. And The Second, Which Coincided With The First and Ultimately Superseded It, Was Direct Communion and (Ultimately) Inherent Identification With The Native (or Prior) Condition That Is Simply and Directly Obvious When the self-Contraction Is Transcended (or No Longer Effective As A Mechanism Of Dissociation From What Is Always Already The Case).

I Observed That The Sense (or Feeling) Of "Absence", or The Sense (or Feeling) Of The Non-Presence Of God, or The Sense (or Feeling) Of Separation From God, Truth, Happiness, or What Cannot Even Be Described, Is Not Evidence Of The Real Absence Of God, Truth, Happiness, or The Indescribable, but It Is Clear Evidence That the conditional self Is Contracting, or Actively Separating From What (Simply, Merely, or Really) Is.

I Named This Disease (or the Diseased self) "Narcissus", Because Of The Likeness Between This self-Program and The Ancient Myth Of Narcissus. And I Became Attentive In every moment To This Feeling Of Absence, Of Separateness, Of Dilemma, and The Urge To Seek.

Remarkably, In every moment Of Such Observation, I Felt The Non-Necessity As Well As The Deluding or Binding Effect Of the self-Contraction, So That A Spontaneous Release Occurred In every Such moment. That Is To Say, I Observed That It Was Un-Necessary To Presume or Suffer or Be Motivated By the self-Contraction In any moment Of My Direct Observation Of it. And, In That Observation, A Deep Spontaneous Response Of self-Release Was Awakened. And Whenever That Release Of self-Contraction Occurred, That Which Is Always Already The Case (Previous, and Most Prior, To self-Contraction) Stood Out As The Obvious.

Over time, What Is (Previous, and Most Prior, To self-Contraction) Was Revealed More and More Profoundly. And As That Revelation Increased, There Was Also The Spontaneous and Otherwise Progressive Unfolding Of The Many Extraordinary Phenomena That Are Characteristic Of Each Of The Seven Stages Of Life.

The Process Of That Revelation By Stages Was Not Developed Only On The Basis Of Insight (or self-Understanding) and Spontaneous self-Transcendence, or What I Call The "Conscious Process", but It Was Equally Associated With A Developing Response To What Was Being Revealed. Thus, It Also Involved What I Call "Seeing" (or Fullest, and Spiritually Activated, emotional, and Total psycho-physical, Conversion To True, and Truly Responsible, "Conductivity" Of The By Grace Revealed Spirit-Power) and What I Call "Divine Ignorance" (or Spontaneous Identification With The Inherent Love-Bliss Of Native or Divine Being, Whenever The psycho-physical Presumption Of knowledge, or "I know what this or that Is", Was Effortlessly Released).

What Is (Always and Already) Is Revealed Only When the self-Contraction Is Not Effective. It Is Revealed To Be Self-Radiant (or Inherently Spiritual) and Transcendental (or Self-Existing) Being, God, Truth, or Happiness. Any and every conditionally Manifested "I" Always Already Inheres In That One, Both At The Level Of Being, or Consciousness Itself, and At The Level Of every Apparent or conditionally Manifested psycho-physical function, process, or state. Even the body-mind Is Only An Apparent Modification Of That Divine Self-Radiance In Which "I" Am.

When This Realization Was Most Perfectly Re-Awakened In My Own Case, all beings, this world, and all kinds of other worlds Were Revealed In That Same One, Inhering In That Same One, and Appearing As (Apparent) Modifications Of That Same One.

Then The Significance Of My Own Birth and Life-Work Became Clear: I Am Only That One. If Only they Will Realize It, Even all beings Are (Ultimately) Only That Same One.

When This Truth (and Condition) Became (To Me) Obvious (As Truth, and As My Condition), The Self-Transmitting Powers Of The Transcendental, Inherently Spiritual, and Necessarily Divine Reality Spontaneously Became Active In and As My Form (Bodily, Spiritually, and Inherently Perfectly). And I Became Moved To Serve and To Awaken The Total Cosmic Mandala Of conditionally Manifested beings.